Sunday, October 3, 2010
Touched by more than an angel
I've been doing so many things. So much going on. Okay more like I'm doing the same thing, just that it takes up so much time. Not thinking means this place becomes empty. But I try not to think so much. I'll just write down some of my thoughts and my situation these few days.1) I've not been able to smell or taste anything for two weeks. There are instances when I try real hard, when I sniff real hard and I get a little, just a little taste of what I'm eating or the smells around me.
2) God is good.
3) I miss everyone around me. Because reading means I disappear off the face of this earth.
4) How are you? I often wonder how everyone is. What are you doing now?
5) It feels good to cycle, at 4am, but I shall try not to get everyone worried. I know the scoldings are because I'm cared for. Thank you.
6) My mind seems to be composing parts of stories and just forming conversation. Not with me, but as if it's a part of a writing. Does reading more make my mind go into overdrive?
7) Always on my mind, the material I have to get through for this academic year.
8) To give is a joy, especially when I give to God.
9) I need to play my guitars and ukulele, my fingers are losing their hardened layer of skin
10) What will I do when I grow up? I know I'm older now, but when I'm older than older? I'm thinking of jobs, but, nothing.
11) I need to go to somewhere with a beautiful beach.
12) I miss my friends. (repeated because I miss them so much)
13) I want to have dinner with my parents.
14) I remember playing with erasers with different countries' flags on them when I was a kid. Abu Dhabi was a bad eraser? Germany was good? Flippity flip the erasers. Where are they now? Then I apply the history of the world. I was influenced by Western media and ideas. Manipulated as a child? Already?
15) My thoughts go in a circle, so did my conversation with A. The conclusion is that, we can never find the answers to this world.
16) There are other people like me? I thought nobody thought like I did or would appreciate my thoughts. We have interesting conversations. Didn't expect that.
17) I'm taking a leap, will You catch me?
18) I'm afraid, but I'm so strong because I'm not alone.
19) Someone pray for me.
20) I need to find Kinder Surprise, the one with the real chocolate egg and not the crap we get now.
So I give you, 20 thoughts for today! Of course there's much more going on in my head. But thoughts are sometimes like dreams you know? Just fleeting. And then my next thought is to think about what I just thought about.
Mr Darcy: You have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love, I love, I love you.
12:35 AM.
12:35 AM.