Friday, July 9, 2010
What is this?!
The feeling I'm feeling is unexplainable. It cannot be dissected by all human theories and broken down. It cannot be analysed and understood. Best of all, it cannot be taken away from me.While I'm being so bad, someone is being so good to me. I misbehave and run off. I don't listen and I don't compromise. I don't do the right things. I fight and lose to myself. But I don't deserve this love I'm receiving.
The words that come to me in the middle of the night make up my song. And I know it is not me. Oh and yes, I am writing a song. I wrote half a song. The tune that comes, how does it come? It is so amazing.
Being there for someone is such an honour. I always happen to be there. Someone always makes me "happen" to be there. Someone has a sense of humour. I like it. I like to be used by someone. I like to love for someone. I like to be like someone. And I'm so thankful that someone loves me, though I'm bad.
What I'm doing now, is just a process. I'm going through a process. It makes me realise a lot of things. And now I know more. Not through force but gentleness, someone shows me the way and points the direction.
Why do I feel this way? Such peace in me. I don't understand me. But someone understands the me who doesn't understand me.
Someone likes to hug me and whisper words to me. Someone likes to love me. Someone I can talk to anytime. Someone who fills me up so much. I am almost afraid to lose that someone everytime. But someone, You will be with me always won't You?
You know, I love you too Lord.
