Friday, October 23, 2009
The Happiness Bug
Hi guys,Just checking in...
How is everyone?! Been more than a couple weeks since I started school. Been more than a couple weeks since I stopped working. Been half stuffed with books. Been at home growing my hair. (Hairy stuffed turkey??)
I shudder at the thought. But despite everything, I've been really happy. I smile everyday and I think I'm getting cheekier by the day. I think it's a progressive disease? But I'm happy to have it. It is such a joy to wake up everyday and give thanks to the Lord for saving me another day. Even my bad days turn into good ones. I feel so blessed.
Life feels so much more matured, stable. Like I know what I have to do. I've found the key. I know why I'm here. I'm changing, and changing for the better. Sometimes I look at the old me and think, "That was me? Huh? I didn't know better!". People call that childish innocence. But I realise, that that exact childlike innocence is what we all need. We need to stop hurting and forget all the crimes against us fast enough. Just like kindergarten. Always pure, always innocent with no motives. And most importantly, no judgement.
I feel like I am about to explode. I am so filled with love and joy and hope and peace. I feel like running around and giving everyone a hug. I know that sounds insane but so what! Just like kindergarten. I feel like making everyone smile so wide all their decayed teeth would show. Now I wish I was a joke book, so I can entertain and make everyone's day. If you don't smile, I'd have masking tape to hold up the ends anyway.
This post is entirely driven by the happy hormones laying/flying somewhere around. Today is a really great day. I have a plan (in progress). Nice breakfast, fish farm (unplanned), shopping, nice dinner. Do you see the smiley faces?
I SHALL REJOICE IN THE DAY THE LORD MADE!!!!!!!!!
See you around!
Sunday, October 11, 2009
People You Don't See But You Haven't Forgotten
I met up with a friend recently. It's a busy time for me now with school and all, but I thought that I'd be glad to see an old face. Anyway, I thought it was about time too! I'd been missing that person a little, with scarcely a phone call for months. It felt really good to see a familiar face. Back in school sometimes it was just plain annoying. But it felt great and we fell back into the same comfortable relationship we always had with each other with more or less no awkwardness.
Talked and teased each other a lot. Caught up with each other and it felt great to be talking the same old nonsense I was spewing years ago. Not that I don't talk nonsense now. That would be an understatement. Just speaking casually with whatever was on our minds, I thought about how much I missed the old days.
These days school is so different. I don't have to wake up early, it's more demanding and I definitely need more discipline. And of course, the people are different. The people right now are more grown-up, less childish. Feels more proper and serious.
So my friend and me, we had a good time. The closeness is still there. But things have changed. People are seeing people. And people like me who aren't seeing people, and aren't seeing things, are not seeing people. Alright, anymore people talk and I'm getting confused.
The point is, how are you doing? You! Person sitting staring at the screen right now. Maybe it's only me, but I think of people a lot. Then I wonder if people think of me. Do you think of me? Call me. Huh? Okay? Call. If you've got something to say. Now I've got nothing to say. I must be the most boring person in the world right now...