Wednesday, May 20, 2009
The three people talking

You know the phrase, "what does that voice in your head tell you...".

I have that voice. Three in fact. Me, God, the Devil.

I am completely sane. This might sound strange to a lot of people; to hear voices in your head. Science classifies it as a conscious and sub-conscious mind. I think they didn't get it right. These voices have always been in my head. It's just that now, more than ever, they are actively participating throughout the course of my day.

There are some commercials on the goggle box that actually play on these voices. You have the good guy, the bad guy, and you. It's similar. It's just that we (the three voices) don't debate on whether I should buy "that" car, or "that" bag on the tele. We debate about my actions, what I say, what I do, basically the entire time I'm awake, and sometimes when I'm asleep.

God, doesn't say the cliche holy stuff you always think he does. He can speak layman terms. Doesn't speak Singlish, but speaks my language. Me, my voice, will ask for guidance and help here. Sometimes he speaks to me immediately, sometimes it takes a little more time. Sometimes he doesn't speak at all, but he'll show me. This is the voice that reminds me of who I am, the person I want to be, the person he wants me to be, by his definition, not mine. This voice helps me to reflect on myself; after a quarrel, after using some harsh words, after the Devil speaks through me. This is the voice that makes me repent.

The Devil. This voice is exactly as it's name suggests. This voice speaks through me when I'm angry, to say hurtful things. To accuse and reprimand. To yell and shout untruths. All the vile things come from this voice. This voice is also the reason why the world is so frustrated with everyone, so angry. See, this voice can be very powerful and difficult to keep in check. I lose control at times. Some people listen to it all the time. It makes you feel guilty. It accuses you even if you have done no wrong. It plays on your fears and it can make one a very unpleasant person.

My voice is the sound that comes out after going through the comments of the former voices. I debate in my head with the former two too because this is my own character. This voice is very affected by God and the Devil. But, this is the same voice that is determined to try not to give in to the Devil.

My entire thought process is consisted of these. It seems a little crazy compared to Science's very rational and logical explanation. The reason for this is because, you can't explain God and the Devil. Science doesn't even believe in heaven or hell. But really, it doesn't matter to me how other people think (no pun intended). Maybe they've got things to say about this post. Maybe they have a different thought process altogether. Maybe they still think I'm nuts.