Thursday, April 30, 2009
Result Of A Very Nice Conversation

How do I explain the smile I have? An upward curve of the lips? A dorky-looking thing on my face?

Well y'all. Someone just made my day. Someone drew a circle, put some orange in it, drew some clouds, drew some birds and bees and flowers. Probably drew some sushi too. I feel great! And thank you, for the exclamation points.

Today I had a conversation about ambition, emotions, life. It was great. I got to talk about what I wanted to do. I also thought about the person I'd become, the person I was, the person I was becoming. We're in a constant state of change. Some changes for the better, some for the worst.

I came out of this conversation feeling a whole barrel of emotions. It's more accurate to say that I came out with a dose of reality. I see my dreams more clearly, I also see the problems from my dreams. That's a good thing to figure out now rather than later.

Someone told me their dream. Compared to other "big" dreams, society would grade it "small". But you know what, society don't matter. They can scorn you and put you down, but what matters is that you're happy. What can be worse than to live a life defined by society as "the best". I can imagine one who is affected to that extent cannot be living his best life. One would have to have all the cool gadgets and memberships and social circles. That just makes a person selfish, conceited and materialistic. The result of corruption.

I don't have to have it all. I already have so much. Sometimes I'm not thankful enough. I look around and so many people are struggling. It feels a little sad but I'll keep the faith. They'll figure it out someday.

For all the hurt and the pain, He knows. Don't give up.